Arrg.. tired..

With all the knowledge of the world, how are we not living our best life?

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"I gave way to delight, as mystics have for centuries when they peeked through the curtains and discovered that this world- so manifestly real was actually a tiny stage set constructed by the mind. We discover abruptly that everything we accept as reality is just social fabrications." -Timothy Leary, 1966

Sila, samadhi then onto panna.

Growth and improvement is our purpose. Not money, not power, or possessions. Only constant improvement of our mind, body & soul. Trying to become our best, enhancing our abilities. The reason why this is so difficult is because it's against our nature.

All beings, at least once, experience their worst nightmare. At least, I'd like to think that everyone, at least once have had an experience where they become the one thing they despise the most. Whether it's an anorexic being glutenous, a vegan having to kill in the wild to survive, or a victim (child) of an alcoholic going on benders. Dante famously said, "In the middle of the journey of our life I came to myself within a dark wood where the straight way was lost." How does one control their own decent into the inferno? Follow. I decided I needed to isolate myself from myself and everyone else in order to evaluate all the motives. Pure disregard and reckless abandon is not part of my disposition. Centering myself is the only way. After separating all the parts of my spiritual mind, I am to make sure that I am protected, and that nothing but positive things come through for me. You need to do a protection meditation like this when you are working on your energies. When you go into a meditation and are in an altered state, you want to be sure you don't end up walking around with other people's energy attached to you. Once centered you can begin to re-evaluate your morals and your purpose in life. Determine which path you were going to take and how you would need to ready yourself for that path. You will only do yourself harm by jumping into a new path. You must prepare for change. You mustn't have unrealistic expectations of an immediate change, but just the expectations that you will do your best.
Growth and improvement is our purpose.

People who don't see their nature and imagine they can practice thoughtlessness all the time are lairs and fools. Bodhidharma

Indecent Not Obscene!

RIP - You will be greatly missed.

Peculiar, I know.

Everybody's gotta learn sometime

Everybody's gotta learn sometime

Everybody's gotta learn sometime

I need to stop listening to what some call their "gut feeling". It has only led me to mistakes and more and more unanswered questions. What I want is to be able to declare: "This year I discovered everything that's important to know about what I don't need and who I want to be. That's one of the important reasons why I've learned to avoid the suffering that comes from wishing my life were different from how it actually is. I'm more at peace with my soul's idiosyncratic destiny than I've ever been."

"My name is Frostie. I wear dresses and I am hardcore." Hahaha

Why do you think?

Reality alone exists - and that we are. All the rest is only a dream, a dream of the One Mind, which is our mind without the 'our'. Is it so hard to accept? Is it so difficult to assimilate and to live? - Why Lazurus Laughed by Wei Wu Wei

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This Day In History!

Figure out the day!

1976: Massive earthquake in China

Early in the morning, a massive earthquake of 8.2 magnitude strikes Tangshan, a Chinese industrial city with a population of about 1 million people. As almost everyone was at home in their beds instead of outside in the relative safety of the streets or fields, the earthquake was especially costly in terms of human life. By the time the rescue effort came to an end, the Chinese government estimated that 250,000 people had been killed, making it the deadliest earthquake of the 20th century.

1914
Austria-Hungary declares war on Serbia - beginning World War I.

1865
A crowd of 100,000 watches the last public execution in Scotland when Dr Edward Pritchard is hanged for poisoning his wife and mother-in-law.

1858
First recorded use of fingerprints as a means of identification by William Herschel.

1833
Britain passes the Emancipation Act - abolishing slavery throughout the British Empire.

1586
The first potatoes arrive in Britain - brought by explorer Sir Thomas Harriot from Colombia.

Well.. on this day in history the good to bad news ratio is 50:50. Who would have thought. Arg.

This is a test...

You're so vain
You probably think this song is about you
You're so vain
I'll bet you think this song is about you
Don't you? Don't you?

You had me several years ago
When I was still quite naive
Well, you said that we made such a pretty pair
And that you would never leave
But you gave away the things you loved
And one of them was me
I had some dreams they were clouds in my coffee
Clouds in my coffee, and

You're so vain
You probably think this song is about you
You're so vain
I'll bet you think this song is about you
Don't you? Don't you?

HAHAHAHA I found this song particularly funny today after a comment I received last night about my last blog. This is just a joke. Laugh a little. I'm poking fun because you're my buddy. Giggle Damn You! It's good for your health! As for myself, I have been feeling pretty up-beat. Probably because of my shopping spree the other day.. Still getting high off the fumes! LoL
This fathers day.. treat daddy to a good show.. Jim Cuddy.. 3:30pm.. Burlington.. FREE!!! << This is not part of the test!!

Today's Letter is ' T '

I guess you could say

I'm one of those girls

That's always been with one of those guys

You know the type

Like right now, he sleeps while I write

But it's better than crying

I'm worn out from trying

From loving a man who always makes it clear

I'm not welcome here

Just till he's horny and hungry

or needs something cleaned

And you know what I mean

But not tonight'

Cause come the morning light, oh

I'm gonna love myself more than anyone else

Believe in me, even if someone can't see

The stronger woman in me

I'm going to be my own best friend

Stick with me till the end

Won't lose myself again, never, no,

'Cause there's a stronger woman,

A stronger woman in me

Light bulbs buzz,

I get up

And head to my drawer

I wish there was more

I could say

Another fairytale fades to gray

I've lived on hope

Just like a child

Walking that mile

Faking that smile

All the while

Wishing my heart had wings

Well tonight, I'm going to be

The kind of woman I'd want my daughter to be, oh

I'm gonna love myself more than anyone else

Believe in me, even if someone can't see

There's a stronger woman in me

I'm gonna be my own best friend

Stick with me till the end

I won't lose myself again, never, no

'Cause there's a stronger woman,

A stronger woman

This is me, packing up my bags

And this is me, headed for the door

And this is me, the best you ever had

I'm going to love myself

More than anyone else

Believe in me even if someone cannot see

There's a stronger woman in me

I'm going to be my own best friend

Stay with me till the end

Won't lose myself again, never, no

'Cause there's a stronger woman

A stronger woman

There's a stronger woman,

A stronger woman in me,Yeah...

so bitter - death is heardly more severe!

"We are told that people stay in love because of chemistry, or because they remain intrigued with each other, because of many kindnesses, because of luck. But part of it has got to be forgiveness and gratefulness."

Exactly.

It is impossible to live without failing at something, unless you live so cautiously that you might as well not have lived at all - in which case, you fail by default.

-J K Rowlings

Sitting in The Rain Waiting For The Tornados...

Talk Tonight

Sittin' on my own
Chewin' on a bone
A thousand million
Miles from home
When Something hit me
Somewhere right between the eyes

Sleepin' on a plane
You know you can't complain
You took your last chance
Once again I landed, stranded
Hardly even knew your name

I wanna talk tonight
Until the mornin' light
'Bout how you saved my life
You and me see how we are
You and me see how we are

All your dreams are made
Of Strawberry lemonade
And you make sure
I eat today
You take me walking
To where you played
When you were young

I'll never say that
I Won't ever make you cry
And this I'll say
I don't know why
I know I'm leavin'
But I'll be back another day

I wanna talk tonight
Until the mornin' light
'Bout how you saved my life
(You saved my life)
I wanna talk tonight
(I wanna talk tonight)
'Bout how you saved my life
(I wanna talk tonight)
'Bout how you saved my life
(I wanna talk tonight)
'Bout how you saved my life
(I wanna talk tonight)
'Bout how you saved my life
I wanna talk tonight

In the back of the closet...

I rediscovered the Vivienne Westwood wedding gown that I hid in the back of the closet.

And it's still lovely.

'In My Life' - The Beatles

There are places I'll remember

All my life, though some have changed

Some forever, not for better

Some have gone, and some remain

All these places have their moments

With lovers and friends I still can recall

Some are dead and some are living

In my life, I've loved them all.

But of all these friends and lovers

There is no one who compares with you

And these memories lose their meaning

When I think of love as something new

Though I know I will never lose affection

For people and things that went before

I know I often stop and think about them

But In My Life I Love You More.

*Sigh* *giggle*

How I love Sex and the City. Any which way I can get it!! *giggle* I have to say I have been feeling pretty damn great lately. With a few minor bumps along the way. But that is just life I suppose. My only request is that my friends find peace and happiness within themselves. Part of my request is selfish because I don't want to continue being stressed out for something I didn't take part in. Anyways... lol For a bit I really didn't believe that there was a love so great and pure after mine altered (I say altered because it did not die. I don't believe that for a second. And you can judge me all you want, call me nieve or stupid if it makes you feel better about yourself.) until I read this love letter from Pietro Bembo. Then I remembered.

Eight days have passed since I parted from f.f., and already it is as though I had been eight years away from her, although I can avow that not one hour has passed without her memory which has become such a close companion to my thoughts that now more than ever is it the food and sustenance of my soul; and if it should endure like this a few days more, as seems it must, I truly believe it will in every way have assumed the office of my soul, and I shall then live and thrive on the memory of her as do other men upon their souls, and I shall have no life but in this single thought.
Let the God who so decrees do as he will, so long as in exchange I may have as much a part of her as shall suffice to prove the gospel of our affinity is founded on true prophecy. Often I find myself recalling, and with what ease, certain words spoken to me, some on the balcony with the moon as witness, others at that window I shall always look upon so gladly, with all the many endearing and gracious acts I have seen my gentle lady perform--for all are dancing about my heart with a tenderness so wondrous that they inflame me with a strong desire to beg her to test the quality of my love.
For I shall never rest content until I am certain she knows what she is able to enact in me and how great and strong is the fire that her great worth has kindled in my breast. The flame of true love is a mighty force, and most of all when two equally matched wills in two exalted minds contend to see which loves the most, each striving to give yet more vital proof...